1/19/2012
Daddy got to feel you, baby boy, moving for the first time last night. It was so exciting for the both of us!!
Hard to believe 20 weeks have already gone by. Halfway there! I get more anxious as the days go by.
1/23/2012
Today we have our ultrasound at the SMCC. Mimi and Jellie are coming in hopes to sneak a peak of you. Daddy is using this ultrasound as confirmation that you really are a boy. Hahaha, he still doesn’t seem to believe the first ultrasound. Can’t wait to get to look at you today!!
01/29/2012
There is no denying that you are ALL boy. The ultrasound was awesome. The tech was so sweet and spent lots of time letting us drink you in. You instantly showed your boy parts, but at first I wasn’t convinced. I jokingly said I would really like to see this baby just spread eagle so there is no doubt. So, sure enough, the tech looked again at your hiney and you were SPREAD EAGLE. You were definitely showing us that there is no mistake. Any doubt or “what if” is gone. I like to think that you heard me say I wanted to see you spread eagle and that you are ALREADY following directions! Haha.
Mimi and Jellie were so excited. We all had tears in our eyes and I know I sure had a new warmth in my heart. Daddy was pretty excited…he was calling you “tri-pod” after some of the images we saw of you with your legs spread. Now it’s time to start shopping. I highly doubt you’ll care this early, but there is all pink ALL over the house with your two sisters, so it’s time for some blue!
02/06/2012
Today, Molly got to feel you kicking. I placed her hand over my tummy and I just sat there quietly. You kicked and she felt it. Her face lit up. She is one heck of big sis already and you are just going to adore her. I know it.
02/07/2012
Today my heart aches. One of my best childhood friends, who was full term in her pregnancy lost her sweet baby girl. It is so hard to accept things like this. There is no understanding it. Pregnancy is such a miracle- the entire process. I have worried through all my pregnancies, praying that none of the millions of things that can go wrong will happen. I worry until I hold my babies in my arms and see that they are safe and perfect. Then the worry for my children starts all over again, and it will never end until my own heart stops. Every little pitter patter that you make inside me is so indescribably wonderful. It’s a reminder that you are moving and making yourself comfortable. Your sister Aubrey, was a WILD little one growing inside me. Sometimes I thought she was kicking me just to see which rib she could bruise. She definitely made herself known and while sometimes I complained about the pain it caused, I was also happy that she was so active and that she had 2 legs to kick me with.
I went to the doctor yesterday and got to hear your sweet heartbeat just pumping away. I always smile as soon as I hear it.
Pregnancy is not easy. Not easy on the brain, the heart, the body. I am reminded again today that it is also the most wonderful thing. To be chosen to bring a baby into this world. I have 2 sweet daughters who are perfect and we are anxiously awaiting your birth, baby boy. I feel so blessed already to have 2 wonderful children, when some women pray their whole lives to just have 1 healthy baby. Thank you, sweet Jesus for allowing us these gifts. We all moan and groan and grumble during pregnancy, but the next time I want to gripe about my belly, or some other funky thing going on right now, I’m going to stop myself and instantly thank God for letting my belly grow, because it means you are growing just as you should be. I’m 23 weeks along right now, so over halfway “there” and every day is one step closer to meeting you.
