Learning....

I love my babies.  I love that my babies without knowing or trying, challenge me to be a better person.  They see me through innocent eyes and to them I can do no wrong.  Recently, Molly made a collage at daycare for me from old magazines and it was "of" me.  One picture was of a young woman in her flower beds digging and planting.  Another picture made me cackle, it was a size 0 looking show girl playing golf.  Not really thinking much about it, I said oh yeah, because I look this good!  And little ears heard me say that and said, "No mommy, you are more beautiful than her, and I cut out that picture because you look pretty when you do anything." Hence the crazy picture of the woman in heels and hose and sequins and feathers on her head, swinging a golf club. 
Molly stopped me in my tracks.  How can this 5 year old be so dadgum amazing?  She left me speechless and thinking of all the things I need to be for her and her sister as their mother, role model & friend.  I dang sure don't need to be bad mouthing myself and I need to show them a woman who has confidence in her own skin.  Ever since this day I have really been watching what I say, and it's adjusting my own outlook....on LOTS of things.
I heard a wise woman of God preach a message called "What I Say Matters" one Mother's Day and to this day I still hear her voice in my head.  Especially when I say something to my kids and instantly wish I wouldn't have said it that way or in that certain tone. 

I cannot begin to describe how glad I am that I was chosen to be the mommy of these precious jewels.  While parents help their children grow and learn, in this case it was the other way around. 

I am thankful for the daily lessons of parenting.  What I say does matter.